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gt back my DE paper 2dae.. tcher oreadi marked leniently le.. if nt, i wunt b able 2 gt my marks 2dae.. i gt 64/100.. well, its juz 10%... hiaz.. final yr paper is 35%.. OMG!!! 0.o.. haha.. hey xz! sorry tat ure sick 2dae.. hope u gt well betta SOON!!! haha... oh.. i wunt b able 2 stay ovanite as well.. my mum allow, but my dad dun allow.. sad !! ~sob~sob.. *sniff* wahhhhh.. juz nw prac a while on Zr.. e river raft songs.. haha.. chen lao shi sae liao le.. my tempo no GD!!!! hw 2 improve leh??? i wonder... sumtimes im sooo pissed off wiv myself fer no reason sia.. haiz.. i gt veri fed-up wiv myself.. fer nt being able 2 catch up wiv others in ZR.. m i being inferior?? or wat? sum times i feel stupid.. n jealous @ tyms.. wen i c peizhen, vic n peile n sumtimes samuel being able 2 press e notes correctli n mi nt able 2.. i feel sorri fer myself.. haiz.. i feel veri bad abt hvin e nd 2 .. Arghhhhhh!!!! hw i wish i can play properly! i mean nt onli fer songs tt ive learn since sec sch.. lyk lor.. other songs in sp!!! is e one tt i wanna 2 noe... wen i c peizhen n vic play as if deyve played fer ages, i feel a little moody.. haiz.. YYYYY????!!!!! y m i sooo stupid.. haiz.. hw i wish i realli can gt a ZR of my own man.. dunno hw many times ive sae tis liaoz... arghhh... cant realli explain hw i feel sia.. diff 2 write in down in words.. mayb tis is gonna stay wiv mi??diff 2 explain.. seems 2 mi tat im beating ard e bushes sayin e same ting ova nova again.. im nv gd @ words.. n i shall nv b... kks.. time fer my dinner.. duck soup!! yummy...