juz cleaned up my room a few daes back.. shall post e pics at e end of e post thou.. heehee.. haix.. i went blcc[boon lay community center] ystrd.. mit wiv huiling, jon n lifang 1st. coz im a noob in e west area n i nv been 2 blcc in my life b4.. =/ i was at blcc bcoz jy ask mi to.. too bad sia.. im too gd a person 2 reject lorx.. lols. hey.. i live in pasir ris wor.. tat means. 1 hr++ of train ride.. one straight mrt does it.. haix.. ok la.. e prac was ok.. go thru guang ming xing n qing dian... i saw quite a no of spco ppl dere.. one of dem is hafiz.. an alumni.. of coz, gt veronica, daryl, huiling, jon, layleng, lifang n nicholas.. ahaha.. e conductor is lyk veri easily agitated sia.. mi n hafiz were lyk luffin n luffin.. coz we dun noe... we kenna lost on e scores as well.. e conductor keep picking on lifang.. shes e onli bass dere.. den gt a veri bian tai hua ying.. veri diff 2 press sia.. in e end change le.. hua ying is meant 2 use e tan pian 2 slide e string.. but den ar... e conductor wanted 2 make it sounds heavier.. lols.. hahah.. i mahciam lyk depending on hafiz 2 tell mi where e notes r n where n wen 2 slide.. haha.. lols.. den after prac, mi, ll, jon, veronica, huiling n huiling go IMM eat lunch.. i had claypot pork ribs rice.. ermmm.. i wunt sae tat its yummy.. looks r decieving.. it looks yummy lor. wen i tasted it.. i onli onli giv it a 3/10.. e rice soo many.. wiv onli abt 3-4 small pieces of pork ribs.. haix.. after lunch, went DAISO.. den we went on our seperate ways.. i went ova 2 CHEVRON.. look 4 tingting.. play pool.. lols.. n arcade.. even thou, e onli game we play is popnmusic3.. its fun.. ahaha.. still, tingting is e pro amongst e 2 of us.. =\ den i went off at 6.30pm.. actualli, her parents wanted 2 longbang mi.. but i sae no nd lor.. i juz walk ova 2 JE mrt.. went in popular.. buy pen.. ooohh ya.. i managed 2 borrow e ccs vcd fr nic le.. but, sad 2 sae, iits onli season 1.. well, betta den nth lor.. haha..take mrt fr JE to BL n all e wae back 2 pasir ris again.. juz 2 get a sit.. n slp on e mrt.. =x.. den tis mornin.. almoz argue wiv my mom.. y cant she tink??!!! i told her im nt comin back 4 dinner.. i wanted 2 prac my zr mahx.. i noe tat ive nt been at hm eatin diinner fer e past few wks.,. she juz tink tat i luvs spending $$$.. haix.. which is nt true.. dis few wks.. i hv nt been eating lorx.. breakfasst(bcoz i dun feel lyk eating), lunch.. haix.. onli eat biscuits lor.. onli spend lyk $1-$2 fer lunch.. haix.. y cant she understand tat i wanna prac??? if i bring zr hm.. i can onli prac in e nite.. n she sae i noisy.. interrupt slp.. arhhh... i juz dun understand her tots lor... T.T .. in e end, i juz walk out of e hm... oi wonder wat hv i done wrong?? issit a crime 2 want 2 prac?? haiz.. im soo damn confused nw.. haizzz.. nw lesson.. ACS tutorial.. ending soon le.. i kenna present ans sia.. do on e spot.. haha... haiz.. shall continue fr here ltr wen i reach hm..
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nw i reach hm le.. juz nw during maths tutorial.. i was feelin slightly fedup.. fer no reason.. haiz.. dunno..juz tat.. i don lyk it wen ppl take my book wiv e intentions 2 copy but giv mi sum crap of onli wanting 2 check against de workings.. haiz.. ok guys.. if u r viewin tis post.. i wunt pinpoint hu u r.. i juz wanna let u noe tat dere is nth 2 b gained fr copying my work.. haiz.. i realli nw more n more zo bi wiv e clz le.. i donn wanna u guys to look fer mi juz bcoz im gd in tat particular module n tat u want my help wiv it.. i dun want tat ok?? haiz.. sometimes, i juz wish tat mel is still here.. at least, wiv her ard, i wunt feel soo lonely.. im nt close 2 aiyisah( e other gal in my clz).. hence, e onli close fren i hv is mel.. yes.. onli mel.. mel.. i hope tat ure viewing tis post wor.. i juz wanted 2 let u noe tat i mis u veri much.. life's nt e same w/o having u by my side.. i feel soo lonely nowadaes.. n i can onli bury myself into e world of music.. chinese orchestra.. haiz.. in sec sch.. i oreadi had enuff of being a loner liao.. but nw.. in poly.. seems to b e same.. m i destined n fated 2 b a loner 4eva!!!? CAN SOMEONE PLSSSS ANS MI ANOT??!!!!!!so far ive noticed is tat im a loner in clz.. in cca.. nt much of a loner.. i don wish 2 b such tat i cant interact wiv my clz mates animore.. n e onli ones hum i can talk 2 r my co mates.. i dont want tat to happen.. it happen once b4.. n i dont lyk it.. n tat was in sec sch.. even thou in sec sch, i still cant talk properli 2 my co mates.. i alwaes kenna skipped ova my e tcher in sectional prac.. i realli dont wnat tat scenario 2 happen b4 my veri eyes again!!! gt an example.. todae, i actualli wanted 2 eat lunch wiv gab, logan dey all dex.. wen i ask gab where dey goin 4 lunch, he sae dunno yet.. but, even after he had decided a place on lunch.. i was nt invited.. i was nt told of it.. haiz.. despite e fact tat i gt ask him.. realli.. i seemed 2 b lost w/o mel by my side.. i guess.. gab, logan dey all took sum notice in mi last yr is bcoz mel is wiv mi.. nw tat mel is nt wiv mi liao.. i guess.. in due time, dey mite nt even noticed my presence.. wat should i do if tat day ralli cums?? i realli hope tat mel is reading tis post.. n gab n logan as well.. i realli hope tat dey r reading tis nw.. but chances r.. is slim.. i juz wanted dem 2 noe hw i feel onli.. is wanting dem 2 noe my feelings tat hard??? i wonder.. T.T .. im juz soo deeply hurt tat noone in my clz takes notice of mi animore le.. soo wat if my studies r good??!! watz e use??? after all, gd grades dun gt mi frens.. im juz soo de lonely inside.. ppl cum 2 mi askin mi qns juz bcoz im gd in e module.. i dont wan tis.. haiz... mel mel mel.. where r u?? come save mi pls.. i guess im too dependant on u le.. but den, eva since i met u.. ive learnt 2 b more open.. i wasnt tis open-minded b4..onli thru u.. den ive bcome more openminded n cheerful.. mayb e clz donno mi well.. dey dunno my pattern.. i dun tag along wiv anione unless ive been invited.. i wunt b soo buay hiao byte n follow.. i noe wen im unwanted.. im juz missin mel too much. i cant juz carry on lyk tat.. i muz b even stringer den im used to.. i oso realised tat im nt as strong as i used to b.. i used 2 b stronger n more immune to being a loner.. but nw.. im nt as strong as i used to b.. ive become more n more emotional.. i wasnt lyk tat b4.. is tis gd or bad?? i feel tat its bad.. its nt gd.. kk.. enuff of my rantings of feelings.. y m i soo pathetic.. enuff of it.. i muz gt on wiv life.. nw.. i wanna post some pics le.. pics of mi n tingting: my best bud at chevron.. n e b4 + after pics of cleanin my room.. hehe..


At Chevrons..










Me & Ting^2..













Collection oF wine @ Chevrons.. can see But Cant Drink.. =/

BEfore Cleanin..










Look Veri messy hor?? lyk pigsty sia..


i shall upload e tidied up version nxt time.. coz its veri laggy nw.. hehe..