M i being over sensitive??
tatz one qn tat i alwaes loves to ask myself n some of my frens.. haiz.. i oso dunno hw 2 ans tis qn myself too.. fr mi being in veri happy & good mood.. all of a sudden, after lecture.. vboom.. lyk lighttning bolt, my mood become veri lousy... all because of a sentence tat my classmate sae... tatz y im asking myself tis qn..
after maths lecture... i dee siao logan by saying tat ive seen a sample of CA report le.. den it was heard by ayisah.. a malay gal same clz as mi.. after i tell logan le, den i walked off in e direction of e library.. but, i heard her comment n it stings lor.. she sae:" so hao lian" i dunno wat make her sae tat.. for those hu noe mi veri veri veri well, in which, i tink deres lyk onli a few, u noe tat i normalli dun speak up well in front oF guys.. n mayb my tone might not b good or wat lor.. but in tis case, i dun tink sooo.. wat she sae, juz hurts mi..it stings.. lyk a knife slicing thru mi.. sometimes, i dun take well to criticism de.. esp, if ure talking behind my back n i got to hear of it.. it realli affects mi.. it juz lower my morale.. make mi feel tat i shldnt topped all my modules(except for one) in my clz.. on e wae to library, i keep tinking to myself.. whether m i tat bad anot.. it took mi a long time for mi to open up myself.. to crawl out of my shell which ive been hiding inside for soo long..its difficult.. as for y i dun speak up well to guys.. its all bcoz wat happen in my sec sch daes.. esp in sec 3&4.. i was bullied by guys.. n tat make mi shy of guys.. but nw, i tink im better le.. at least, i can speak to guys w/o feeling strange/nervous.. its a long way.. n its tough.. wat i said to logan was to disturb him dez.. mayb to u, my tone is no gd or wat.. haix..
den after tat, i went out wiv tingting.. n i complained 2 her abt ayisah.. even thou i dun feel ani better after ranting it all out lors.. soo, i make it up by ki siao-ing while window shoppin sia...acc. her to orchard to claim lucky draw prize fr LJS.. in e end, found out tt its nt at orchard, but at douby ghaut LJS.. hai.. so take dad's C1 to douby ghaut.. haha.. oh ya.. changed my bank book le.. finalli.. my mom wunt b nagging at mi to change bank book le.. haha.. den change atm card as well.. haha.. den go claim e prize.. n guess wat we eat fer lunch?? ya man.. LJS!!! haha.. den went SPOTLIGHT.. i bought 2m of ribbons to tie my bag.. n den went atcioncity where both of us, bought e same handphone strap.. haha.. yay!! den went home.. after dinner, i acc my mom go loyang point.. where i go n buy 4D.. haha.. n i managed to pass thru as above 18 yrs old.. yay!! 2nd time le wor.. haha.. hope can strike bahx..den buy many many thingys.. den home sweet home.. nw ranting out in blog.. well, after ranting out, i still dun feel ani better.. still feel tat lousy..
maybe, afterall, it hurts mi deeper than i tot.. sadx..
sometimes, i wonder.. is mi getting gd marks gonna cost mi my friendship wiv my clzmates??
abt co.. i sometimes oso wonder.. if im a gd sectional leader anot.. it worries mi.. i keep tinking tat im nt a gd leader..
If im a gd leader, i wunt b scolded by my juniors..
y i kenna scolded?? its a long story.. i said it in one of e prev post le..
haiz.. mayb im thinking too much into it le.. i wonder?...
i heard a song tat is nice n slow.. e lyrics oso i lyk it.. by weng qian yu.. old time singer..
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