haiz..
been feeling kinda tired these few days.. n emo too..

tired of sleeping
tired of working
tired of being awake
tired of everything

dunno whether if its e impact of not getting e chance of converting to perm sia..
i keep thinking to wad bryan tell me b4..
i wasnt truely chosen..
i was only given a chance to c whether am i suitable anot..

damn it..
tshin n zhongwei have oreadi been converted to perm n not me..
why??
WHY???
WHY????
we r all fr e same batch.. only diff between me n them is our dip..
damn it..
is dip soo impt???
damnit

keep feeling tat all of us r drifting further n further away...
since dey bcome perm>???

i wonder..
zhong wei is nw e shift somemore..
haiz..
hope that im nt overly sensitive..

damnit..
i keep feeling so pessimistic

arghhhh~!!!!!!

tat day when take taxi hm..
e taxi driver ask me soo many qn..
abt y i nt perm etc..
even replying him .. i feel hurt..
feels like im gonna cry /breakdown if he ask further
luckily.. tat time was reaching my hse le

all i can do nw is SMILE..
a big fake smile on my face..

tatz hw i feel when facing them...
i keep teasing both of them abt being perm..
hahaha..
lols

duno wad m i doing anymore le...
haiz..
haiz..